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Help, I'm Sick

I attended a very nice luncheon at a friend’s house. However while I was sitting at the table I started to feel really sick. Not telling anyone of my condition I soon left and drove home. Dragging myself out of my car I made my way up the stairs. I tried to eat a little something but I was too tired to even chew. I made myself go to the couch in front of the television. I tried to watch Seattle’s Torchlight parade. I sat there in a near catatonic state not looking at the parade. When I woke up several hours later I staggered to my bedroom. I was still nauseous. I stumbled into the bathroom holding on to the walls and lay down hugging the cold toilet crying out to God to help me.

I didn’t know whether to call 911 or not. I just felt if I could vomit I might feel better. My stomach churned. I longed to vomit and be rid of what ever was ailing me. However I could find no relief. The nauseous feeling just made me weak and tired. You see I had eaten, for me, the forbidden food. Several years ago after being brought to the hospital by ambulance, I was told, by the emergency room doctor, to never eat fish again or I might have another near fatal reaction. Earlier that day I decided it had been a number of years and I would give it a try. Alas I was mistaken and I was a very sick woman. I fixed a trash can and put it by my bed just in case I couldn’t make it back to the bathroom in time. Fortunately God let me go to sleep. When I awoke in the morning I felt much better and I was much wiser. I don’t ever want that nauseous feeling again.

Later when reading a passage in Revelation I thought about what God does when He feels nauseous. God wanting to vomit you say? Well He tells us that sometimes that’s how He feels. God wants to vomit. Look at Revelation 3:15"I know you inside and out, and find little to my liking. You're not cold, you're not hot--far better to be either cold or hot! 16You're stale. You're stagnant. You make me want to vomit." (Message Bible) Wow! God states that the lukewarm state of the church makes Him sick. Thinking of my own misery I pray that I will be one hot believer. I don’t want to make God sick.

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